2018 The Year of Self Awareness

Almost every year on New Year’s Eve when I was young, my cousins and I would spend the evening making homemade pizza or cookies with my grandma. She would sit us up on the counter and let us pour ingredients into the mixer bowl. I have many memories like this locked away in storage. Days, events, and times peak my thoughts to unlock those memories. Today, being one of them.

Tonight we will do the same, only now there are more than us grandchildren. Now, there are great-grandchildren as well. We will go out and play games, swim, and let our own children make the memories that we made when we were young. Funny thing is, our kids are still playing with the same toys we did because she kept them all.

Reflecting back is a normal part of starting the new year I think. For some reason, New Years Resolutions have gotten a bad rap. Why? Maybe because commitment seems to be a thing of the past. Maybe it’s just an overused term, or maybe society thinks were fulfilled to the max, that we can’t do anything to make ourselves better.

Whatever the reason. I believe in them. I believe in looking back on my year and reevaluating. I truly think that there isn’t anything more powerful as a parent than being able to recognize your own shortcomings and strengths. I am teaching my children to become adults and I hope they always remember the things they’ve been taught.

  • It’s ok to be mad, it is not ok to be mean
  • If you’re in trouble always tell the truth
  • Making mistakes is what helps you learn
  • If something makes you uncomfortable, stop and reevaluate
  • Eat your dinner, have some candy
  • Debate – Don’t argue
  • Be open minded
  • Dance in the car
  • Sing in the shower
  • Look at the sky
  • Love your neighbor

The list could go on for days.

I started writing for Newsymom.com last May. It has been one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life. Our founder Michaela has a fire inside her that is contagious and because of that our website is taking off. I am so proud of the work we are doing here and the people we’ve helped in the short amount of time I have been involved with the website. Newsymom has also helped me on a personal level. Being able to have a platform to share my deepest most inner thoughts was terrifying at first, but all of our readers are unbelievably supportive. I love that about this area.

I learned so much about myself and my family this year. The good, bad, and the ugly. God had blessed me with an undeniable strength. I am not sure what to do with this quality or why I was the one blessed with it, but I am certain my children will prosper from it in the future.

Waving into 2018, I will not make a New Years Resolution. I will make a New Years Goal and Commitment, to myself and to my family. To possess more qualities of my grandmother. I want to be able to set my kids up on the counter and let them dump endless amounts of flour or sugar in the mixer bowl without caring that it’s falling all over the floor. Let them wipe their hands on their pants and say “it’ll come out in the wash.” Most importantly I will work diligently to foster such a relationship with my children that when I have adult grandchildren of my own, they will want to come sit at my kitchen table play games, watch movies, and bake pizzas. In the end, nothing else matters but God, Love, and Family.

Have a Safe and Happy New Year!

💜 Jess

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